I'm back!!

Yeah, Ive been gone for a little while. Two weeks in fact, and for some reason I was unable to log on to this while I was away, so here I am, my triumphant return. Love you all.

just so lovely.

Merry Christmas everyone. Im just feeling blessed today. I have some incredible friends, and many of you are included in that list, and its just...if Gods love werent enough to humble me, yours would be. Anyway, the point is, I love you all. So many have you have made my life an absolute joy and theres not enough I can do or say to thank you. I just wanted you all to be very aware of how much I love you and how blessed Ive been to have you in my life. Thank you so much. On a different note, I have a request. Umm...this is kinda hard, I wanna be specific AND keep it anonymous, but many of you know my brother. Anyway, keep him in your prayers if you would. He's been struggling with his health pretty steadily for a couple of years now, and has been unable to work all the time, and is a newly wed, so you can imagine the strain put on that marriage. My mother and I talked last night and agreed that this "sickness" is not physical. Its been made very clear my brother is under attack by the enemy, and so far, he has been given the upper hand. Please pray for my brothers strength, and ultimately his deliverance. Its been a long time since hes given a shit about the church or God, which makes it more difficult. Thanks in advance ppl. While on that topic, hes just recorded a new album, he'd LOVE some fans. You can listen here: www.myspace.com/endingalexander I love you all. Thanks so much.

my tooof hurts!!!

Okay, so...Ive had problem teeth for...well...a good long while. The pain comes and goes...and last year had gotten MARKEDLY more intense, to the point where I was in emerg, TWICE! Of course all they can do is give you pain killer and send you on your way. I had no coverage, so I couldnt afford anything. Instead, I developed a love affair with Liquid Advil. She and I had a torrent affair. Anyway, in the summer I went to the dentist to see what all needs done, it was getting just too much to bear. Theres a list a mile long. I was feeling better. No pain. Outta sight, outta mind. DUMB. So now, most immediately on my list...I have a brutal absess that is causing me the most intense pain Ive ever experienced. To put that in perspective, Ive broken bones, and had major surgery. Thats a cakewalk compared to this. So, moms, empathize. Send me cyber hugs. Husbands, I really want a good hard punch in the mouth...but if you cant knock the tooth out, forget it. Anyway, other than that, Im stoked about Christmas and family and New Years and all that jazz. Love to you all. Pray for my poor tooth. And the agony Im in.

For Holly.

This blog is ALL for Holly Hildebrant. I have little to nothing to say, she just doesnt like the severed appendage :-P I went to a bible study last night for the first time in I dont remember when, and it was good. It felt good. So thats something. Im gonna try church there on Sunday. that should be enough writing to get rid of the picture.

PS-this photo is me with some INCREDIBLE draperies at Williams Sonoma in Portland. Wowzers!
PPS-apologies to Holls and Matt for mispelling their last name. Im a dork.

First snow and Timmy-Ho's

Its true. Vernon has taken a flying leap into winter. Just 2 days ago there wasnt even a SPECK of snow on the ground. We now proudly display our half-foot, and, so the new snow wouldnt be lonely, we also invited -15 temps. Dont misunderstand, I did NOT invite these temps, but Im glad the snow is staying, at least for a while. As for the Tim Hortons. I have to mention the yummy new breakfast sandwiches. Its possible many of you have tried them, thats cool. What I love, as a southern boy at heart (family is from Alabama, Georgia, Tennesse) I totally LOVE the fact that theyre on butter biscuits!!! Canadians will call them homestyle or whatever, but the technical term, butter biscuits. Although, this is from a culture that has defined the term "grits" and "chitlin's", so take it with a grain of salt I suppose. I'll now entertain you with my first snow story. I went out last night in the thick of the snowstorm (it wasnt that bad, okanaganers know what our "storms" are like) to get some groceries/pick up a latte. On the way there, the wipers decided to invite a new friend, ice, to come join them, thus effectively rendering me blind. I proceeded to pull over, clear the windshield, and continue. I made it safely to the store. On my way to Starbucks, again with the ice. This time I pulled off onto a side street, almost slid up onto the curb, and got out of the car to snap the ice off the blade. Imagine my suprise when I hear no snap at all, instead, I look down to see the wiper blade still in my hand! Who is the idiot that made plastic clips for winter?! So, with my own arm acting as the wiper arm, I made my way to Starbucks (you didnt actually think Id sacrifice my latte do you?). Starbucks is CLOSED at 9 on Sundays PPL!!! So at that time I decide, WalMart. Gotta get a new blade. Plus, I have to go to Bean to Cup to get a freakin banana mocha! WalMart was closed. Open til 10 every OTHER day of the week. I got my mocha. All was well. And I made it home without a scratch, and with a humorous anicdote for you all. The End.

Also, a top 5. You know it was just a matter of time until I did this. (no particular order)

5. AsTallAsLions-S/T (self-titled)

4. Maritime-We, the Vehicles

3. He is Legend-Suck out the Poison

2. Jeremy Enigk-World Waits

1. Dustin Kensrue-Please Come Home

If you can find any of those, good on ya. Have a happy wintery Monday.

PS-thats my buddys finger. I dont have snowy pix...

morning coffee at 1:15 PM!!??

Ha! Thats right, for some reason thats well beyond me, my body clock thinks its hillarious to keep me up til after 5 am and leave me sleeping until after noon. I dont enjoy this. When I was young I used to think that when you get old (30) you just get up at 7 every day. Not true. I sleep like Im 17, just 13 years later. Its totally fun that so many of you dear friends have found my blog. Thats precisely why I created it. So ppl I care about and trust can know whats REALLY goin on. Between you and me, all the babies have me a bit jealous, so it would be helpful if all the babies could halt all adorable-ness immediately. Thanks. So, my life in a snapshot: sleep til 12 something. have coffee. sit on here for a couple hours. watch some...Holmes on Homes (best EVER). that pretty much does it. times that by 7 and thats a week. its beyond sad. Ive been discussing this phenomina with my mom (she makes complex things very simple) and she just said NO one can live without a purpose. I have no purpose. I could deflect my purpose onto Melanie, but Ive been there/done that/no thanks. So, Im in a bit of a limbo. I walked away from the institution of "church" 2 years ago. While I dont think its essential for a Christian to "go to church", it does provide ppl with some sense of self. And purpose. So now that its been 2 years and Ive alienated myself from the church I used to attend, Im left with the daunting task of trying to go back and not feel like a square peg in a round hole. Moreso, Im left with the task of trying to make myself go anywhere, just because I know its good for me. Sort of like most things in my life. I find myself craving scripture which Ive NEVER experienced before, and to answer the craving, nothing. Same with reading, I get all stoked to read Chronicles (Im still determined to finish the series) and convince myself to do something else. AHHHHHHH! So Im a bit frustrated with my own nature, and conversly, I guess I also do what I want, even tho I dont think I want it really. Haha....thats not confusing. I always feel the need to post a pic. This one REEKS irony. Taken in Portland, Or. PS-a very freindly hello to teresa and Alison. Holy smokes youre moms!

photos of fun.

Pike Place, Seattle

this is the fish-throwing place...with the fishes.

K, a random gum wall in a back alley....very strange...I got cinnamon :-P

without her its just "attle"

K, awesome black dudes singing Motown outside the mother of us all (aka-first starbucks ever)

Balls to the wall...

Okay, so heres the REAL skinny for the people I actually care to know it all, and possibly for ppl who have no clue who I am anyway. I have been dating a 21 yr old American Beauty named Melanie for....almost 8 months. At the 7 month mark we got VERY confused about trivial things that were severly magnified by the fact that we live 9 hours apart and subsequently broke up. Not long after the break up was a reunion, followed by a break up and a reunion. Now, for those of you who know me, Im sure youre thinking "what the hell are you doing Terry?" The answer is simple, I love her. The "issues" we had, and continue to have are trivial at best and made worse by the distance between us. In fact, the thought of all this distance with no real end in sight was likely the final nail in the coffin. I figured it was best, and in all honesty, wasnt overly "terry upset" about it. (for those of you unfamilliar, Im FAMOUS for crying in front of ppl, even moreso for crying over drama I created myself). Then, as we were really just trying to clear the air in everything, it hit me....like...it was...real. I love her. Thats it. Not I NEED her...not I have to have her...not I need the sex. I love her. I want her. And so, I made the decision to relocate to anywhere in this country she wanted to go, although that looks like the greater SFU area. So, if all works out on her end, I will move to be with her, and to give this the best shot I can. "Youre moving for a girl?" No Im not. Im moving so in 5 years I wont have to ask myself "what if?" Thats worth the move to me. Not to mention that puts me within half an hour from my family and some very good friends. So, for those that cared, Im in lovely love with a lovely lady from the USA, and this is what that part of my life looks like.

innogural

Ha! This is my first blog on here. Basically I already have a myspace account, and Im coining this blog site myspace for grownups. This of course goes on the assumption that I AM a grown up, but Ill leave that up to you. Ive been a Christian all my life, and have for the past 2 years or so felt very disenchanted with the institute of "church". Ive felt abandoned by ppl I considered friends, and brothers and sisters, in my most urgent need. So Im here now, feeling even in myself like Im slowly losing touch with everything I once held so dear to me. I crave the thruth almost daily, and yet my, well, either my pride or my jaded-ness keeps me from actually seeking it. So, as a first post, to those of you I call friend, all I ask is that you be one to me. Dont ask to pray for me, or exorcise a demon, cuz there isnt one. Just love me. Thats all I ask. So, there it is, and heres to a new beginning in web-logging. Peace out.