You cant fail if you dont give up.

Thats what I learned today. Well, truly, I heard it on a great movie I watched and it makes perfect sense. So, an update. So far Im pretty much stalled at my recent revelations (see blog below). Added to that however, is a really good job I was offered and start tomorrow. Its a chance to start at some semblance of a normal existance, and itll help me afford to get to see some ppl I havent seen in a while. Otherwise, Ive been pretty introspective. Thinking through why I do the things I do...whats the payoff...that sort of thing. I dont know to be honest. I appreciate everyones prayers. I still havent got everything figured out. I dont know if Im ever supposed to. Maybe thats the point. I hate feeling like Im totally needy, but truthfully, I just am. I could really use prayer for the whole job thing. Its a GOOD job. Good enough for me to stay put for now. Im not good at...hmmm, its very confusing. Im a good worker, hard worker, but I easily convince myself to call in sick, not go, quit, or that they want me fired...its really quite stupid. Its related to the disorder I have. No completely rational person decides to make up being sick, then call in. So anyway, I need strength, patience, quick learning...all that fun stuff. I love you all. Anytime you feel like saying hi I'd love it. Not a lot of friends out here. So there it is.