Dream on dreamer, dream

Okay so randomly blogspot just let me sign in. Its been months. Ill nutshell the little stuff and skip right to the big...Im working at starbucks, which I love. Life is going really well, Im happy and healthy and I have a car!!! I havent for 3 years so this is a biggie...The BIGGEST thing in my life is meeting a wonderful, beautiful woman who loves the Lord, and is literally EVERYTHING Ive always dreamed of...AND shes into me!!! WEEEE!!! Needless to say I feel blessed well beyond measure. You can know more if you wanna, just ask me. Theres way too much to tell generally, so Ill let you ask. That is all. If I love you, and youre reading this, drop me a line and let me know how you are!!!

Ter

You cant fail if you dont give up.

Thats what I learned today. Well, truly, I heard it on a great movie I watched and it makes perfect sense. So, an update. So far Im pretty much stalled at my recent revelations (see blog below). Added to that however, is a really good job I was offered and start tomorrow. Its a chance to start at some semblance of a normal existance, and itll help me afford to get to see some ppl I havent seen in a while. Otherwise, Ive been pretty introspective. Thinking through why I do the things I do...whats the payoff...that sort of thing. I dont know to be honest. I appreciate everyones prayers. I still havent got everything figured out. I dont know if Im ever supposed to. Maybe thats the point. I hate feeling like Im totally needy, but truthfully, I just am. I could really use prayer for the whole job thing. Its a GOOD job. Good enough for me to stay put for now. Im not good at...hmmm, its very confusing. Im a good worker, hard worker, but I easily convince myself to call in sick, not go, quit, or that they want me fired...its really quite stupid. Its related to the disorder I have. No completely rational person decides to make up being sick, then call in. So anyway, I need strength, patience, quick learning...all that fun stuff. I love you all. Anytime you feel like saying hi I'd love it. Not a lot of friends out here. So there it is.